My. life. is. in. a. suitcase.

My heart as of right now, this second.

Tunnels, Lights, & Such.

I truly believe that this summer can be summed up as a light at the end of a really dark tunnel.

This summer is going tremendously well and this makes me happy.


#1: Jesus is so faithful and I fall in love with Him more and more each day.

#2: There is another special person in my life that I can not wait to spend the rest of my life with.

#3: YWAM is in just two weeks and I am looking forward to what God is going to do.

#4: God has answered a prayer to my passion for singing and I will be working on a project with a producer in Raleigh when I return home this friday and in July.

#5: I get to see my soul sister and my son at BP in just a week and a half.

#6: I have time.

#7: Jesus never ceases to amaze me.





Daddy,
Thank You for sending blessings in my life these past couple of weeks. You are so good, and Your promises never fail. I know that even in the hard times there are goood times to come. I thank You so much for this. I thank You for every single person You have put in my path because I know that each one is there for a reason, which draws me closer to you in any given case scenario. You are such a Mighty God and I cherish each breath that You give me. Help me to use everything that I am for You and Your glory alone Father. Keep my heart humble so that You may here my cry.
I love You. I thank You for everything Daddy.
In Your Son's most precious and holy name,
Amen.

Psalm 51: 12 & 17

It's been awhile since I have had that time to allow God to speak.

I haven't quietend my soul or my surroundings.

I have been going and going, but today I took time.


I believe God takes us through the fire to refine us.
I believe God will take us places that we necessarily do not want to go to make us and mold us into the creation He intends for us to be.

I have been struggling with this.
I want it easy. I don't want it to hurt. I want it to be comfortable.

When we are called by God, it takes trial after trial after trial to bring us to that humble place where He can and will rip away the flesh that holds us back from
Him.

As Christ walked on earth, He never ever had it easy. His heart was constantly breaking for humanity, He was continually being ridiculed, and He never went a day without being mauked for who He was.

When we choose to identify with Christ, we take on the same sufferings as our Saviour did. I choose to surrender and allow for all of these things to happen in my life so that I may be heard by my Father.


Daddy,
I ask You today to "sustain" my heart and make me "willing" to go through whatever to become who You want me to be. Forgive me for being selfish and wanting everything to be easy and comfortable. I know that You take us through hard times to refine us. Remind me of this daily so that I may be blameless before You. Father You know my brokeness, You know my shortcomings, You know me like no one else. I ask that You would break my heart for what breaks Yours, and I ask that You would put in me a new heart, a new perspective, and the conviction of things that grieves Your Holy Spirit.
I love You Father. I long to be with You and know You more. Thank You for sending Your Son to save me and set me free.
I ask all of these things in Your Son's most holy and precious name,
Amen.

ALL.

"“LORD God of Israel, there is no God like thee, in heaven above, or on earth beneath, who keepest covenant and mercy with thy servants that walk before thee with all their heart.”" 1 Kings 8:23


Time flies quickly.

The times we are living in are perilous.

I am longing for Christ's return.

I am ready to go and do whatever He would have me do.

I desire for Christ to saturate all of my heart, all of my spirit, and all of my soul.

I believe Jesus is summoning his servants now more than ever to go out and proclaim His Word as fearless soldiers. I believe that it is only through Christ that human beings can live in total freedom. I don't want to sit back as a coward and not let the Truth be known. To say Christ is the only way is something that is very difficult to express in our culture today, but we must come to the point where we can boldly stand up for Him.

John 3:16


Abba Daddy,
I love You so much. Please forgive me of my shortcomings as I forgive those around me. I am ready for You to return and to spend eternity with You. You are all I want. You are all I need, and there will never be anyone like You. Please saturate all of me. Please have Your way with me, so that I may be refined and blameless before You. Set me free from all the things that try to chain me and hold me back from the plans You have destined for my life. Daddy, I ask that you would prepare Your servants to be bold and to be courageous for the things to come. I ask that you would set a hedge of protection around those that are fearlessly proclaiming Your Truth in dangerous parts of the world today. Cover them Lord. I ask that You would send the angel of the Second Great Awakening to revive and to turn hearts to You. We need you Lord. We desire You. Please come soon.
I ask all of these things in Your Son's precious name.
Amen

Beautiful.

These past three days have been the most beautiful days I have had in a long while.

Friday- I worked out. I had great Jesus time. I had the most exquisite Indian dish. I spent time with my Dad and Catherine. AND I saw Iron Man 2 which was a GREAT film.

Saturday- Relaxed. Went to an AMAZING church service, where I was deeply moved, bonded deeply with Jesus as well as Catherine. Was invited to lead worship for the Youth which was a huge answered prayer because I have been held back for several months now. [won't go into details]


Today- Relaxed. Went for a walk on a beautiful, scenic trail with my daddy. Had a WONDERFUL Iced Caramel Macchiato w/ soy. Got to express my love to the very special mothers God has placed in my life. AND found out bf is coming to see me in Colorado this weekend. :) <3

God has been doing some pretty awesome things in my life since I came to Colorado. He has answered so many prayers and I see His love shining in dark places here. He is prettyy awesome!





Abba Daddy,
I thank You so much for all the wonderful things You are doing in Steamboat. You are such a mighty God, and I am so glad I can thank You in the good times and the bad. I know You pour in only to have us poured out once again. So I ask You to begin pouring away into this thirsty spirit so that I may pour into others lives Daddy. I thank You for all the caring and nurturing mothers out there. Mothers play a dear and irreplaceable part in so many lives and I thank You for that. Thank You for your love and mercy You show to us daily. May we exhibit the same character as we fall more deeply in love with You. I love You soo much and again I thank You for everything.
All of these things I ask in Jesus' name.

Take 2.

I've been trying to sum up my experiences, my observations, my struggles from this past year.

God literally took me from the radical Christian bubble I loved, and placed me where there is confusion and distortion amongst various belief systems.


Tonight my friend directed me to a quote , that sums up the heart of todays culture. Many tears have been shed and many prayers have been lifted up to the heavenlies this past year.


May God bring hardcore conviction to the hearts of this generation we live in today.

- "There is a common, worldly kind of christianity in this day, which many have, and think they have enough - a cheap Christianity which offends nobody, and requires no sacrifice - which costs nothing, and is worth nothing"
- J.C Ryle

Sweet Summer.

I love summer.

I love being able to exercise and bike everywhere everyday because I am without Old Betsy.

I love that I am only 30 seconds from Starbucks.

I love that in the morning I can build a snowman and by noon it is warm outside.

I love spending time with Jesus all throughout the day with no other worries clouding my brain.


This is the life. I am enjoying every minute of it; and I thank God for the opportunity to live in such a great town.

Daddy,
I thank You soo much for summertime. I thank You for being in control of my life even when I feel like everything is falling apart. I thank You for sending my dad to the other side of the country where it is beautiful and there is no face to be recognized. I thank You that You are AWESOME, ALMIGHTY, and that You ARE the CREATOR of the UNIVERSE. You are so cool and I could not imagine life without You. Thank You for loving me, for showing mercy, for guiding me , and for being Lord over my life. I do not deserve it, but I am so thankful for it. I pray that You would continue toto guide and direct my path, and that You would continue to give me wisdom as You have promised.
I ask all of these things in Jesus name,
Amen

it's been awhile...

"if you don't do the Word, you'll forget the Word."


"Expressing in action the Word of God brings forth a special anointing that brings blessings."


"To call Jesus Lord, is to do whatever He tells us to do."


"And if so, our only answer is Yes, Lord."


"if the Word is the final authority, then all argument will cease."


-Pastor Dollar


I want to be a doer of the Word.