This is the first Christmas I have spent with a family other than my family.
It is always difficult to be apart from the ones you love. Change is difficult, but it is good, and though the familiarity of tradition is far from me, I have learned to soak up this change as much as I can.
I leave for Egypt in two days. The reality of it has not hit me yet, and I suppose it won't until I am on the plane crossing the seas.
awesome.
Side note: This has been the first Christmas I have had that has not felt like Christmas. I suppose it is all this change, but maybe seasons are changing. Maybe God is doing something much greater that I could ever imagine in the spiritual realm. Either way, I am ready to shake this feeling that has plagued me for months. I am ready to fly, fly freely. I am ready to breathe, and breathe deeply. But mostly I am ready to love and love passionately. We all need love. We need love in all shapes and forms. The most difficult part is waiting for that significant love that is only expressed through the bonds of marriage. It seems foolish, especially when those who know Jesus, KNOW that He is the ONLY one we really ever need. Even so, I know that God knows that no one wants to be alone, and He does have someone specifically made for each on of His children. I just pray that who-ever that may be .... will come soon.
Anyways.....
This day is a day to celebrate the birth of Jesus. He is alive and if it were not for Him we would have no Christmas. I wish I could have a Christmas with just family without the nuisance of gifts. They are gross, and so temporal. I am tired of things.... I am tired of money. It is about Jesus therefore it is about relationship. It is about sharing that relationship with others and sharing the love that Christ has so freely given us. That in itself is enough to satisfy every single inch of me. I choose to love and love deeply. I choose to express love through relationship and through action. I just want YOU to know that I love YOU. And for those who read this. Let's have coffee. Let's share love. Let's live in the freedom of Christ together.
Merry Messiahmas!
