it's 3am...

It is now 3am and I am still pondering the things that have occurred in the past couple of days.
For months I have had dreams of disaster, and yet I still find that I am blown away by what has brought devastation to Japan.
The worst part is, there is more to come. It is promised. We can truly do nothing about it. These things were prophesied long ago.

Through the world's eyes, God is a vicious being who has no love or no concern for people on earth. They scream and mutter, "How can such a loving God bring forth such destruction?"
I hear the cries of these people, even the ones who claim there is no God, and my heart violently weeps for them. I see the disaster and the crushed spirits of those who have watched their loved ones drift into the unknown. I question as well, but through God's eyes I know there is love, justice, and mercy in the midst.

There soon will come a time where there will be perfect peace and there will be justice. God is perfect. He is the I AM. Our sin is like gross feminine rags to Him, and yet He still chose to make a way for us through Jesus.

How much longer will we pursue the desires of the world and ignore the Almighty who is beckoning our hearts towards His? How much longer will we live in denial of the soon returning King and ignore the signs He is giving us???? How long will it be until we choose to fully surrender ourselves to Christ so that we may be made one with the Father. HE IS LOVING. HE IS MERCIFUL. HE IS KIND. HE IS FAITHFUL. and yet we continue to run away from Him. We continue to pursue after this temporal world and the material things in it. We continue to find our satisfaction in people, alcohol, drugs, sex; fame, fortune, fashion; food... You name it... we run to it. When will we fix our gaze completely on the Father? When will we finally say yes to Him and no to this world???

I want to fully surrendered to the Father. I want to be radical for a radical God. He is the CREATOR of the universe.... He can DO as He PLEASES. And yet we limit Him.... We put our fixed theologies and formulas to Him and label it with Jesus when it really isn't Jesus at all. We must let it go... We must come back to the foundations of Jesus Christ... We must learn to be in the garden before the Father just as Jesus was.


I want to know my Father deeply. I want to know His heart. I want to know His voice so that I may not be deceived by the things that are quickly approaching in this world.

Father,
I ask that You would comfort Japan during this awful time. I ask that the Voice who calls the boundaries between the sand and the sea, would speak gently to the hearts of those mourning in Japan and around the world. I ask Father, that people would run to You during this time, and not harden their hearts or be offended by You, Lord. I ask that You would open the eyes of those who are ignoring Your prophecies in America. Forgive us, Lord for our wicked ways. Forgive us, Lord for our wayward hearts. I ask Lord, that You would fix my gaze so that it may be continually upon You and the things of the heavenlies. Purify my heart and my mind. Give me Your words, so that I may pour Truth into the lives of others. I love You, Lord. I praise and lift up Your mighty Name. You are the I AM. There is no other. I thank You for Jesus. I thank You for loving us that much, Father. You are good and You are faithful and You are just. O, merciful Father, shine upon Your people today. Grant us the wisdom and dicernment to know the difference between truth and falsehoods.
I love You, Lord.
I ask all of these things in Jesus' name,
Amen.